Chapter 11

January, the month he faded away the month all my dreams crashed away, this is what happened in that awful month.

Dear Diary:

I can't beilive I'm talking with Dr. Tourette, 9 months after that awful night, well Dr. Tourette asked me to write everything I can remember for this past 9 months, geez, I can't believe I'm actually having homework from that nutcracker shrink of mine, she, how ever, is a good person, 28 years old, she isn't talkative like may other shrinks.

Ok this task consisted on witting everything since new year's 'till yesterday, dia de muertos, she says that that way I might be able to remember, who killed my dear Wally, or maybe, I'll remember that it was actually an accident, any how, I will write everything I can remember down here, this book will be written by me and read by Dr. Tourette, Faith, ok let's begin.

January the 1st

Wally and me had been at a party at Kevin's, Kevin is a tall brunet guy, he is 6'2", gray eyes, dark brown hair, strong features, he has been Wally's best friend since ever, well since 2nd, that he and I stopped talking that frequently; Kevin is a hunk, and a heart-trob, of course not as much as my dear prince on shinning armor Wally, anyway, Kevin and Javier, Javier is Wally's other friend, he is 5'6, blue eyes, light brown hair, pretty much like Hoagie, with the only difference that he, Javier is skinny but muscular, and Hoagie is just skinny, as I was saying, well back to the pint, Kevin and Javier had both had a crush on me like forever, of course they will always deny it, Kevin got a girlfriend that looks tons like me, just with green eyes and she isn't Japaneese, Javier is still single and had always been chasing after me.

Wally and I had spent New Year's at Kevin's, I was slightly drunk, and Wally was woooo drunk as if there was no tomorrow, which, thinking today, was his last drunk day on Earth, well anyways, we woke up tangled in the middle of the kitchen's table, half nude.

For what I can remember we, well I fall asleep as we were playing and seducing each other, and I fall asleep, out of drunkenness, he must have fallen asleep right after. We awoke and dressed quickly since I heard voices coming towards the kitchen, and woke Wally, it was Kevin, he gave us no time to get off the table.

-Oh dude, I'm sorry, please enjoy yourselves - Kevin said and he left the room grinning widely, outside you could hear Javier and Kevin talkin

-Hey Kevin, I wanna eat, why did you left the kitchen?

-Well Jav, have you seen Wally or Kuki around?

-Well ... no ... but what does that has to do with ... oh

As they were talking we finished making ourselves presentable and left Kevin's, in a hurry, not even bothering to take breakfast, just said a quick by and left, I heard Kevin yell something like "the hotel will not let you use the hotel room until 2 o'clock... find something to do in the meantime". We just kept walking down the street.

January 5th

After embarassing my self in front of Kevin and Javier, Wally and me kept avoiding 'em, we crashed against 'em and Javier whispered something to Wally.

-Everything is in order now

Wally just nod and kept walking with me by his side, hugging me closely. He suddenly asked me if I would go on a date with him the next weekend, Saturday was always our day, I agreed, and he asked me to pick something semi-formal, and that he'll pick me up by 5 o'clock.

I still wonder what did he meant, I would ask Wally, but ... well let's say I don't want to hear his response anymore.

January 13th

Well we all remember this day, the unforgettable day, the darkest day of my life, the day that would darken my life for ever, I remember clearly, it was a beautiful January cold day, well as cold as it can get here in Beverly Hills, he had asked me out to dinner on January 5th (I hate trying to remember everything we did as last things done)

He picked me up at 5 o’clock sharp, he took me to a small coffee, semi formal, it’s a small place the Aloha island coffee. I love it there, the view, the food, and the environment. After that he took me to the sea. It was like a dream come true, as if he was trying to accomplish my only dream, to be asked by the seashore. The sunset began and I was looking at the sun hiding in the sea, being swallowed by it's eternal lover, the sea, I saw he kneeled by my side and took my hands in his, I knew what we was doing, he was making my dream come true, "Will you Kuki Ikari Sanban, marry me?" he said opening a small velvet box, I was speechless, I pinched my self, and began to cry happy tears, I said "I do" softly, he stood up and pulled me into a kiss, deep, and loving, it was pouring, I love that, that rain without clouds, with the sun shinning brightly. We began walking back home ... talking about our wedding, I know i should have called my car, but I didn't, we were walking a block from his home, where we would climb to his car, and he'll drive me back home, as always.

Then in that block where the comic book store is, in that small alley formed in between the candy store and the comic book store, just in front of the bank, there he died, that figure who appeared out of nothing had a knife and stabbed Wally, on the side, then he with, a pole, hit his head several times, I swear it was on the hand of a mugger, who didn't mug us, so he could be a killer, anyways, his target was Wally, he didn't even touch me, I am not even certain it was a male, I just remember his/hers red eyes.

I saw Wally being attack and protecting me fall to the ground, I just started to cry, and he turned to see me, and dry my tears, he had his skull broken, and blood was coming out of that wound, his side never bleed, just his skull, I called an ambulance, and Wally said "I love you Kuki, don’t cry, everything will be fine." Then he fainted, and the medics gave me the worst of the news, before even taking him into the ambulance, there was nothing to be done, he had died, I cried so much that night, my dreams had been crushed. I went to his father's and told him about what had happened, and by the next day his funeral was ready, it would be on the afternoon, and he would wear the tux, I had picked out for him, I bought it and made the ... man who dresses the dead... to put it on, and the white roses we both licked so much.

January 14th

His funeral the saddest day on earth. His dad was smiling as if he never had a son, weird, but I think I understand that he was evading the truth now. Mom and Dad, will always talk bad about him, so does Nigel, Hoagie, Abby, Fanny, and Rachel. And Kevin and Javier went to his funeral, carrying, flowers for him and for me, both bouquets, were of Carnations, Forget me not's, and Sweetpeas. because of their meaning I guess, anyway those bouquets were forgotten in his grave. As made my way home, I could hear the wind call my name, and his. That same day I decided I would lock up in my room, just to think about my dear Wally.

January 21st

I'm visiting my dear Wally from his day every day

January 26th

My first suicide attempt. I won't say any more

January 29th

I visit for the first time Dr. Tourette

Well that's all that happened in January, all that I can remember, plus what I've already being writing in my diary, which Dr, Tourette has already read, I have no idea why she wants me to rewrite all this, anyways that's it.

I must say, I can't remember much of that day, January 13th, a date I will never forget, and a date I won't remember after the pretty moments I share with Wally.