I am at the lake where Wally and I had made love more than once, I am nude, the sky is dark no stars could be seen, it is a fullmoon night, clouds were circling the moon, the lake water is warm, and it feels oily, I got on top of the rock that is on the middle of the lake, rounded and flat, I laye there looing at the moon, a chilly breeze starts but I don't shiver, I close my eyes, and wish Wally was here with me, I feel soft lips carefully placing kisses from my belly button ou to my breasts, I open my eyes and there he is Wally, my angel, he is also nude, he kisses my shoulder and says - morning my dear angel - I look up at the sky and see that it is infact a beautiful morning the sun is barely rising, Wally places himself on top of me and we keep kissing, I hold him close, hugging his head pulling him closer, his hands begin to explore my body, we begin the ritual we always did by down, our love making.
I fall asleep as soon as it's over I'm now on top, hugging him close, taking his scent, suddenly I shiver, and I feel a watery substance on my skin wake and see my body covered with blood, I'm still nude, Wally is not here, i'ts night time again, cloudless, starless, moonless.
I hear my name, as I wake I'm fully covered of sweat, I'm on my king size bed, wearing my pj's, I stand up and open my window, letting some fresh air into my room, I sit by the window, and watch the starry sky, the bright moon smiling at me, and the clouds that warn a storm is coming, it's 5 on the morning, that nightmare again, I hope this charm works.
After i passed out at Abby's after playing that horrid game things had been happening, first i can clearly see and feel Wally, then those nightmares, and thing have been going like that for a long time now, today is Dia de Muertos, 9 months. I have been taking some anti depressives, Dr. Tourette has been helping me or trying to, I have started to eat again and I do leave the house not only to go to the graveyard, the shrink, and to my friends. My brothers are quite concerned with my current state, I would too, I'm grumpy and snap at everyone who dares to talk to me, Wally was my break, he always made me feel happy, but now that he's gone i can't control my rage.
I dress my self with my dark green hoodie and my black jeans, I pack some books, Mr. Wallikyns and a white rose, my engagement ring is still on my finger, I will never leave it behind. My parents and brothers had been having a close watch of me, the scars of my wrists still aches, it's ben one monh since my suicidal attempt, I was locked up the week after. then we played Red Book, and I fainted, I can't remember what happened.
I'm going to the graveyard, Ace, said tat the dead came back of death and visit us, still death they eat with us, I don't know how much of this is true, still I'll go and have breakfast with Wally.
I lexit the mansion waking Rose, she is my maid, and a good friend too, she has been going with me everywhere and I'm positive she'll keep the secret, of me sneaking into the graveyard by dawn every day and coming back just in time for breakfast.
I sat with Wally, placing Mr. Wallikyns in between us, a candle lit and some burgers he loved, of course I also brought soda and potato chips, that was is favorite meal, I always laugh at him, burger is not meal, but he would eat them anyways, I began talking with him, about everything that has been happening, the candle lit out, meaning he had arrived, I stood there with him two more hours, talking with him, and feeling happy for he first time since his death, I took the food away and placed it on the neares trash can when I left, Ace told me that I should do this, otherwise I'll become sick.
Genki, has restarted going to parties every week, Kin, has been to busy with business to notice anything, a usual, Ryoichi, has broken up with every girl he was dating and asked out this girl, that accepted, curiously, she has been the only one he had not cheated on, and I heard somethng about proposing, I can't imagine my dear Ryoichi married, Jiro, he had gone to France, with his wife, they are on some kind of long vacations, Takeshi started his own business, he and his wife, they married 4 months ago, are taking care of this new Sanban Enterprice, I think that means he will stop being slothy, Mushy and Sandy adn't come back since after Wally's burrial, I had returned to school, my friends and classmates felt sorry for me but now they don't care if I'm lonley.
Nigel, Abby, Hoagie, Rachel, and Fanny had become the supportive friends they once were, Ace is still flirting with me, and I still tell him that my heart belongs to Wally. I might seem happy again, but I'm not yet, my days are still grayish, but I don't let them see any more, Dr Tourette is still my shrink, and we still keep that non chatting mood, I will go make some tests and tasks, play the piano and read some books, and she will still stare at me.
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